Happy Sailing Sayang,i pray for u always.

Beloved Hubby just texted me just now,

" Honey take care. Jangan nanes.
Hubby sayang Honey so much.Nanti hubby call dari atas kapal."


Short,but sgt terkesan di hati saye yg lara ni.
huwaa..tiba-tiba lah kan airmata rase nak kuar lagi mengadap skrin kat workstation ni.
Sob*sob*sob*

Hubby call me dari atas kapal juge tadi to say kapal dia dah nak gerak ke tengah.
Segala amanat & pesanan penaja.
Takot wifey dia ni nanes2 je sorg2 kat sini.
Bee kata maybe kapal sebulan kat tgh laut dalam tu and maybe tade hp line.
But he do promise to call me via satelite phone.[sedeynya,dahla jauh susah nak call pulak]


Cukupla airmata ko jgn kuar lagi boley?

Malam tadi saat bee melepaskan pelukkan terakhirnya time sy nak balek Putrajaya dah buat sy nanges sampai sakit dada.
Cume tadela sampai meraung cam baby =P
Seb baik kat bilik hotel time tu,so sy menangis semahu-mahunya dalam dakapan nya.
bee berulang kali memujuk sy that everything will be fine without him.
ntah tatau kenapa,cam sedey gile perpisahan kali ni.
padahal dah 2nd time after we got married.
i'm feel like dying.
Seriyes.

Bee hantar p keta,he kiss & hugs me dan cube menenangkan sy.
Muke dia kewl gile jea,tapi tula sy tau jauh disudut hati dia juge bersedih.
Sepanjang jalan tu airmata berderai2 mcm ujan dahh.
Seb baik adik ipar sy yg drive.Kalo aku yg drive ntah camana smpi ke tak pagi ni.Jiwa kaco gile.
Hubby still texted dan menenangkan jiwa yg lara.
Kawan2 pon texted juge memberi kekuatan utk sy.
Terima kaseh teman-teman..
Terima kaseh sahabat unit 10 tu yg tak putus2 beri semangat buat kwn u all yg gembeng ni.
I really appreciate it so much.

Sampai je umah us dah pukul 3 pagi,tambah sayu rase hati.
Tiada lagi keriuhan suaranya spt selalu.
Tambah sayu melihat our sweet bedroom.Hmm :(
Speechless.

Terfikir bermulalah episod bergerak secara solo selama berbulan2 pasni.
No more pampered,independent.
kena kuatkan semangat demi hari2 seterusnya.

Cube menenangkan hati,sy ambil air semayang & mengadap yg maha Esa di keheningan pagi.
Rase hati yg berselimut kabut semakin reda.
Terima kaseh Allah..
Padamu ku pohon kekuatan utk menempuhi ujian ini sekali lagi.
tabahkan hatiku selalu.

I feel like..
Down gile,feel like no motivation at all.
Rase cam empty gile je.
Takpela,nothing to be worry about.
Seminggu pertama Bee sailing mmg selalu sy macam ni.
nanti-nanti dah mule adapt nagn new environment i will be okay insya allah.
Nak mule tuned life berseorangan je skrg ni,yelah dah biasa 3 mths 20 days bermanje nagn hubby.
Doakan semuanya oke ye kengkawan :)

Sy decide g keja gak pagi ni coz terfikir kalo amik cuti & stay sorg2 kat umah lagi sedey.
cam kelaka tgk my colluages semua tgk sy cam alien gile arini.
Siap say..
Hi yat.[selama ni tak say hi pon]
Disampuk oleh one of my colluages azizul,
"dahh say hi je.
Jangan tanya apa-apa kat yat,kang nanti nanges makcek tu.
bagi dia calm dulu"

*tau takpe*



Dear sayang..

Happy sailing and working back sayang..
I'm here will always pray for ur safety & healthy.
Semoga Allah pelihara Hubby di sana dan jgn lupa kewajipan pada-Nya.
Dun wori bout Huney,taula wifey hubby yg dah beso ni jaga diri sepanjang ketiaadaan Hubby yea :)
Doakan wifey manje Bee ni kuat hadapi segalanya.
Only the best girl can be with seaman kan,Bee selalu kata gitu.

I'm sure i'll be mish u so so so much after this.
For the sake of us,insya allah everything will be just fine.
Everything happened for a reason kan Bee!

Thanks for being my greatest hubby and for the precious time we had spent together.
Insya allah,bekalan kaseh sayang mencukupi :)
Nanti2 kite selalu keep in touch through phone bile bee ade line yea.
Miles maybe separate us,but not in our heart.
Hold our promises till the end time.
Lillahi taala,i really do luv u so much hubby!
*polok-polok hubby*


*tarek nafas dalam-dalam*


Insya allah semuanya kan oke kan :)